New Year Eve

Happy New Year Eve everyone!
I recall last year we ate hot pot at Jo Ann house and celebrated New Year Eve together.Had so much fun.
Owh,I remembered I drank Tiger beer.WOw,Tiger beer.. O.o...
Tasted like...don't know what to describe.
I think I need to drink more.To train myself?What a reason.
How about this year?TONIGHT?
Probably do nothing at home Shall stick my face onto the laptop screen.
Laptop still can't connect to my home's wifi.I am lazy to call 100.
We waited my dad computer hero friend come and set everything for us.
With that,only dramas that my dad downloaded I can watch.
LALALALALALalalalalalalalalalalalala..
I am trying to cheer up myself and it's hard. ;(

Well,skip that part.

>>>>>29.12.1992<<<<<

 Tell me what so special about this date?

A cute pretty sunshine girl was born on this day!

Happy 19th Birthday Suipor*

I knew her since Form One in Methodist Secondary School.(MGS)

And time flies.So fast we are already 20 tomorrow.

Angel,Jia Iaw,Mei Chee,Jasmine Felicia and I celebrated her birthday on yesterday,30.12.2011.

We planned this late because the birthday girl was busy celebrating with her classmates during her day.

We gave her surprise.

Me,Jia Iaw and Mei Chee at Angel house chit-chatted waiting others to come.

Next,Jasmine bought cakes and Felicia drove us to her house.

On the way tried to call the birthday girl but nobody picked up.

She napped.AHAHAHA.

We stood outside her house and waited her to come out.

Surprised!! 

Just only wake up.Aiyoyo :)

Preparing to lights up the candles.

What am I observing?Eh,wondering O.O

Ready for birthday song.Lalalalala~~

Group photos section

With Smiles. =)

Once Again.

Happy birthday ah Leng Nui <3

I slept at 5a.m this morning and woke up at 9a.m

How energetic me to woke up such early.

Emoness attack me since last night.

I was on fire when problems come attacking me one by one.

Seriously I don't know how to handle them well ;(

You ask me prepare dinner,wash dishes house chores simple thing,I'm ok with it.

But if you want me to prepare everything smoothly from A to Z for you,

Sorry for that and.I wish I am able to help out.

Please stand in my position and think,can you？

I am not a super girl.

Don't tell me shitty stuff like your business is more important or anything.

How about mine?I tried all sorts of method just to help you.But what if I really can't make it for you?

I can't get things for you,you show your faces like is my fault.What for?

Once or twice is still ok and I can smile like nothing happens and take things easy.

But if you do this often to me,how irritate it can be?

Do you know how much it hurt me?

For what I've done you never appreciate.Not even a thank you.

Maybe you did,only I don't know.

Well,I notice everything but I don't split out words to you.

I couldn't help you that much each time.

And if you want something so much,why don't you get them by yourself and stop demanding and seeking help from me?

I have tolerate so much and you guys don't even want to think about me at all.

Or maybe I am not good enough for you all yet.

I hope one day you'll know that I am trying and doing my best.

有时候的我真的有心无力，但却还要被你们的冷言冷语，种种脸色伤个透

能否换一次替我想想，或许今天的这个我会是以后的你们。

Ok,shouldn't be emo this much.
Stepping forward to year 2012 so soon and hopefully it will be a good starting year.
Enjoy everyone!
With Loves
XOXO

今天的你们虽然都不在我身边，

但我依然庆幸有你们。

我好想哭，但我强忍着，希望自己能够坚强少许。

♡

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. 
They must be felt with the heart.

Distance doesn't matter if you really love the person, what matters most is your honesty and trust for that relationship to work out.

I always remember this:
One more day without you is one more day closer to being with you.


Don't have to ask me anything.
I do miss you.

Courage.

I still smile, even when I wanna cry. I know I'm strong, even when It doesn't seem that way. I always get my hopes up, even though I know it's pointless. I try my best, even though it will never be good enough. And I remain standing, even when your giving it your all to knock me down.

People will forget what you said.
People will forget what you did.
But people will never forget how you made them feel.

Laugh when you can,
apologize when you should,
and let go of what you can't change. 

Kiss slowly, 
play hard, 
forgive quickly, 
take chances, 
give everything 
and have no regrets. 

p/s Emo-ing.

Christmas Eve.

Wulalalalalalala~
Happy Christmas Eve friends.
This year a little bit boring,nothing to do,no where to go.
Sister went out early,left me and others at home.Awwww.
Lonely lonely Christmas.
Kuantan is bored.Bored with malls.WHERE TO GO?
The only thing I do everyday for now is eat sleep eat sleep and eat sleep.
Getting fatter and fatter.I am going to be King Kong. I hate it!
And I am serious,I need a job. =(
I want myself to be busy all the time.
Urgh,emo period.
Friends,date me out.Anywhere.Anytime.

I miss my boy.
Very.
Mr Tan,are you reading this?
I MISS YOU.
When will you be free?
AAAAaaahhhhhhHHHHHHh
Whatever it is,I am still here alone =(
Need you.
我想你

I'm Back.♥

Just reached home last night by Transnational Bus.
I am sad because my phone memory lost.All the photos I snapped gone. =(
What to talk about my trip?
On last lovely Sunday,my boyfie came to Kuantan fetched me back to KL again.TOUCHED.
Reached KL about 6 something.Can't remember well.
Went dinner with him and someone else.Ah,I remembered I ate shui jiao mian..HAHA
After dinner, we walked for awhile then he went home and sleep.
I was alone in hotel for that long long night.
Sleeping alone in hotel is quite scary for me.
I don't dare to switch off lights. T.T!!

Woke up the next morning at 7a.m and I gave him morning call.*EVERYDAY*
He can't accompany me go shopping.
HE IS ONLY FREE DURING NIGHT TIME After 9p.m =(
But I went with other girl.
A LOVELY GIRL.
We went to Sg Wang and Times Square.
We walked non-stop. I hardly can recognized those shops because all looks the same.
Sg Wang is crowded.They said this is what happening everyday.Wulalala.
Times square is better but I think I bought nothing much from there.
Met with boyfie at night around 9 something near to 10pm.WE GO NOWHERE.
Went back to hotel.
After shower it's TV time.
So lame.We both stayed in hotel and watched ASTRO 311.
He watched 义海豪情.He said he watch this almost every night.
I don't know since when he watch this kind of drama.
I only know he's busy all day long.
Then,I told him the story line and he asked 是咩，是咩？hahahaha.FUNNY.
He went home early.Around 1a.m.
Again.I slept alone and Tv is on  till the next day I woke up.

Tuesday,I did nothing.Keep walked around in mall.
Something unlucky incident happened.I was alone in mall.
Luckily he came and save me.
I feel so sorry because I made him worried.
He was busy and still willing come to me.
After he get to know I am save,he went back to work again.
Night time,we went to Genting Highlands.
Nothing much.Owh,we snapped photos there.At first I refused to take photos with him.WEIRD.I also don't know why.
The photos are not with me.In his phone. =)
Tuesday night is the last day I see him.
That night,I have been afraid to look at him to leave,because I know I would be very reluctant to leave him.
He said byebye and I just nodded my head.En en.
And when I look back,he has gone back.
T.T

Here are some of the stuff I bought home.
lousy photos.I am lazy on snapping nice photos.

Dresses.Few more but I am lazy to snap.

clothes

 Short Pants.

Brother's Christmas gift.LOL

It's for my HAIR.

I went there with the wrong shoes and finally I bought this at VINCCI KL.

Another pair <3

For my younger sisters.

For younger sister also

Lot more I bought but I am lazy to snap photos.
I bought another handbag,some accessories but too lazy to upload.Awwwww..

From the love.THANK YOU
♥

谢谢你们这三天给我的关心和照顾。
我很感动，虽然很舍不得，
但我很珍惜每一次能和你们见面的机会
我想你们了。

给某一个人：
谢谢你送我到巴士站，然后从窗外向我挥手看着我离开
我真的舍不得你，很感动你为我做的一切。
你的信息我也收到了，在巴士里的那一刻，我真的流泪了。
现在的我依然很想很想你

Urhm.

Two days before went dinner with classmates.

We also celebrated Malreen,Olivia and Shanice birthday there.

After dinner,some of us went to TC beach.

We chit-chatted,snapped photos.Had so much fun that night.

Here are some of the photos 

Preparing to jump high =)

 Chee Yik,The Johor boy-Swee Yang and See Yong

Avalokitesvara

Another Johor boy.Zhenye

The Mr Skebe I always shouted.

I love this photo so much.
I will definitely miss all of you

For more photos please view from Olivia's facebook.

The next day our politic man Mr Jia Wang invited to his house.

Again,we were there all gather around chit-chatted and played cards.

As you all know I don't play cards.

So I joined the chit-chat group talked about things that we wanted to do after STPM.

We had keropok lekor from Pekan and burger.COOKED BY JIA WANG.

Is a good thing first time see him preparing food for us.You know why?

Helovestomumbleifweaskhimtodothings.ahaha

UNO-I don't know how to play =(

Miss Bao Shian with burger =)

What game is it?Heart attack or something?

I loves this rattan chair.Bao Shian enjoyed much.

Self service with foods and drinks.

Awwww,this three man.

This girl don't want to take photo with us I don't know why
SHIRLEY TAN.

Next,today!
Went ECM with my girls.We went for sushi but I didn't ordered anything.
After that they planned to watch movie but I complained it's boring.
Finally decided to sing K.

Sat in there for two hours and all we did was shout out loud.
I am so happy because finally I grabbed the shoes that I wanted so much.
Guess what,it's last pair.*wink wink*
And now I am broke.
Photos are not with me so shall wait for the next post or will be uploaded by them in facebook soon.
Maybe I am not in because I asked them not to snap me.Wulala.

DANG DANG DANG-Within a week.Only this many I can afford.BROKE
Sorry for the light problem because my room now is with orange lamp.
Don't ask me why.Ask my dad.

That's all for the past three days.

Maybe not going to facebook this coming three days.

Heading to KL this Sunday.Can't wait .

Clothes I am coming to you soooo soon.

Stay tuned till I come back from K.L

P/s I miss you.

Finally,I want to decadent.

Finally have finished my exams.
Relief?Feel free?Happy?Enjoy?Joyful?
Feeling a little ill at ease.I don't know how to describe my feelings.Maybe I am tired.
Kinda disappointing because my friends are not joining me to KL.
I am going alone.Did I just said alone?Yeah yeah.ALONE.I don't think this is a good news tho.
Don't ask me why don't I go on other days.I planned my days.And this coming week will be the perfect week.
*I am not very busy but some date are special and I just wish to stay home.
Can't wait to meet my awesome people. =)

Went out with sisters few hours ago and I bought a bag.Pink one.
My beloved sisters scolded me:"can't you get enough of bags and shoes?How many more you want to buy?"
I didn't bother both of them.I just enjoy being myself.
Sometimes when you buy things don't need to make any considerations.
One shot,GRAB and PAY
I am this kind when I have so called " mood. "
And I am going to carry my pinky all way long to KL.
I bought so many things these days and I still can't get enough.
I spotted a pair of shoes.RED one.Not cheap but I really want to grab it that time but I just stopped myself from buying that.
I already bought two pairs of shoes past few days don't I remember? Urgh!!
Maybe I could grab it this Friday.Let me think think think......
How I wish money is papers. >,.<~

Reached home around 10.15 p.m and I locked myself in room because my mood wasn't good.
It's called emo.

YOU KNOW I ALWAYS EMO.ESPECIALLY DURING NIGHTS

I cried.I admit that I would cry for little things.Silly.
I cried because ...

我哭不是因為她，而是你

我不說是不想為難你，所以把所有的一切都留給自己

當我在最難過的時候，我會這樣的告訴自己：

一開始都是我一廂情願的，我不可能怪你

甚至去學會包容，體諒的配合你

你並不知道，雖然我心這麼想，可以都無所謂

但別把我的無所謂看得太輕

其實我還是會有極度非常需要你 的時候

然而你不懂因為我都不曾說出口

無時無刻，都在想你

Crapped!
Ignored them.
Can't wait for the classmates reunion tomorrow.
Must be fun.

Short update.

Outside's raning and I do not know when it would stop.
Chilling myself because I tempted to go out and the time began to rain.
The problem is not having an umbrella or not but I don't wish to get my feet or calf wet.
This is what happen everytime when I walking in the rain.

Time flies and it's December now.
DECEMBER,meaning getting older....
And only one more paper to go.After that,I will be free.YEAH. And oh no.
I don't think I could pass my math.It was very hard yet I couldn't manage to answer all.
I have no confidence at all and I think I gave up .
What has done already been done and it's no use to keep thinking about it anymore.
And it's time to say bye to my secondary school life.Urhm....

Chinese New year is coming so soon already.
I haven't buy myself any clothes yet but already bought two pairs of shoes and two bags.
Did I just mentioned shoes? Shoes? Can't get enough.And it's never.
I don't know why I am spending as if money is not money....ngek
Went shopping with my lil sis and she got everything for her new year.
I haven't shop for dad and brother yet Both of them are kinda troublesome.
They are choosy.REALLY.
I don't mind if I don't have anything to wear because I found that my cupboard filled with lots of clothes which are still new and not even I wear them for once.
Wasted.Should save money for other purpose.

I hope my KL trip is still on.
Ji Mui's all having problems not going and only left Tracy and Irene.
But both of them seems busy with their brothers competition.
I hope they could make it for once.
If and only if they really can't make it,then I might going there by myself. Sobs.

One more thing,wish to meet them in KL.
I miss them and ...
I want to hug them badly.

What should I title this?

I have a need. A need to write it down, to get my feelings in blog so I have something that I can hold on to.

Having days without you is hard for me.
Sometimes I wonder if I am not alone and you were here.
You have no idea how I had gone through my days.
I swallowed my tears,cried embarrassed but no ones know.
I have you but seems looming. Heartache and you shows nothing.
You make me very sad instead of angry.I can do only understand you more.

常常问自己，那么爱你为什么？ 

一遍又一遍，但始终找不到答案。 

没有心情，看着一切不想动， 

或许是我默默的付出，却对你一向没有过多的要求， 

让你不知不觉中忘记了 

我也需要你的关心，需要你的体贴，需要你的疼爱。 

让一颗等待的心， 

以心为中心点，从上凉到头皮，从下凉到脚底。 

你始终固执的占据着我心里最重要的位置。

于是只能无奈的任凭泪继续流着，心继续痛着。 

我的天空总是下着雨， 

每当夜人静的时候，孤独总是如影随形， 

思念的痛冲击着我身体里的每一根神经。 

                     电话再甜美，话语再安慰，也不足以应付不能拥抱你的遥远。

原諒我一時的心情，

我並不是生氣你

我在乎你對我在不在乎

沉默，是一个女人最大的哭声
女人有心事后，不想多说，感觉说话很累，或许是习惯了沉默，习惯了痛，习惯了安静。

                                                              难道你还看不出来吗？

                                                         还你你也一样选择了沉默

                                                               又或者是我想多了

Some beautiful scene to get lost

Had discussion with dad yesterday night about my studies.

I told him that I may couldn't score well.Meaning could fail.

He said it is not a big deal if I really can't make it and we are still young for now.

There are many things we can do out there.

I thought he will mad at me but no.This is what makes me feel guilty.

Through the conversation,I know he is changing.To the better way.

Not because of my studies I speak that way but this is a really good transformation for him and us.

From a stubborn,ego behaviors transform into a tolerate and understanding dad.

Seriously,if I am at his age,I probably would have fall in love with him.

Well,I am dragging this too long, back to topic,I don't know what to respond after get my result.

Saddening?Crying?Relief?

I feel useless for not pushing myself that hard anymore.

Something is blocking me and I don't know what it is. >>> excuses!!

Urgh,I don't want to think about it anymore.I cannot grab those papers back and redo.

Friends started to plan their long long holidays.*HAPPY for them.

How about me?

I got a long list! So much to do.

First,keep my room clean.THIS IS MOST IMPORTANT.

Books are everywhere.Imagine books on floor,on bed,in dining room.=)

Secondly,looking for job vacancy.

Planning to have 2 part time jobs.

Morning and night.I wish to be tuition teacher.It's only take 2 hours at night,not long.

I need to work to earn money.With money I can plan to do and buy alot of cool stuff.

Thirdly,party with classmates.

We had never talk about this yet.But will plan fast because some of them might leaving very soon.

So far we are only invited to Jia Wang house in Kuantan.

I am so not going to miss this part.

Fourthly,meet up with my Ji Mui's

You guys must be wondering know me for so long and how come never hear that I have Ji Mui's.

Who are they?

Tracy,Kah Chee,Vanessa,Ierene and Chi En.

Don't be shock if you see those names because we showed not very close in school.

Even I don't talk to them when we pass by each others in school.

You will say crazy,are they friends?

Yes,we still hang out together during free time and chit chat about anything.

It's weird I know.

They said I am arrogant sometimes but they understand me well now since I have this kind of behavior from previous school.

Aihs,I just can't get along with anyone that close during school time.I don't know why too.

But I appreciate them.

Ahh,I wanna get updates from Chi En and also Irene.

I miss their laughter and the teasing part already.Sobs

Next,Go shopping.

Chinese New Year is coming soon.

I want to buy lot's of thing.

At least get myself two pair of shoes,nice dresses.

I want to dye my hair too but I force myself not to think about it.

I want colour but also nature colour at the same time.

Finally I made my last decision.

I don't dye hair =(

What's next?

Holidays with him.

HE PROMISED.

This is what I do when I'm depress.