silence

time past things change.
everything is changing.
time will not wait for us.
do whatever you think you should.
say whatever you wants to.
nobody is going to stop you.
nobody is going to mind your business.
don't have to wait for the next minutes to come
because you cannot predict what's happen next.

silence is good sometimes not.
silence can be scary.
silence can kill us.
anyhow,is much better for us to keep silence than talk.

be yourself.
don't have to compare.
everyone is special.
try to accept what you dislike or what you hates.
try to forget and forgive while you can.
give a chance to yourself and also others.

nothing is impossible.
go for what you want.
be brave.
be strong.


nothing is free in this world.
this world is fake!
sometimes you think life is meaningless sometimes not.
follow your hearts,
it tells you everything.

cry is always the better solution to express feelings.
shout is another one.
but don't let emotions to control you.
you are who you are today.

 tonight,
i just want to be silent 
i want to hide myself in a dark room.
i don't need any attention.
i don't need advices.
i don't need cares.


all in all,
i am too tired in everything.

Happy Chinese New Year.
             

                        ♥♥






i miss you

i.n.a.c.t.i.v.e

not going to login my facebook account this often anymore.
everything in rush.

*i know 24 hours is more than enough for us to do everything.*

i have to face more on books.
brush up what i have missed.
fortunate to say that i got great teachers this year 
Datin Genga for biology.
Pn Lee Meng See for chemistry.
and miss Irene for mathematics.
this year will be the most busiest year.
no more fooling around.
no more day dreaming.
i have to keep awake!


i get some reflection from my boyfriend said that i am arrogant person sometimes??
well,i am so sorry about that.
of course,this is not my virgin time to hear that.
i don't mind because i am not.=)
let me make clear about this
actually,i am not arrogant at all i suppose.*this is how i think myself*
is just that sometimes i am too busy with works or too pressure on something .
i really don't meant to give the wrong impressions.
=(
sincerely apologize from me,huh.

despair.

sick.

how long i can withstand? 

i admit that i am too fragile for sometimes.

i need to talk.

i need a shoulder.

you know i need you the most when i am not in good mood.

how much you meant to me?

i wouldn't tell you

because,it's infinity.

right path

set your mind.
keep yourself in the right track .
and move for it!
i am aiming for something huge.
i know what i suppose to do with.
things will not come to you for free.
do not take things easily.
sometimes life, is uneasy.

STATUS

am doing the right thing.

emptyness

ain't clever,
ain't stupid.
work harder

01.01.2011

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

yesterday went to jo ann house for countdown celebration.
seriously,it was my virgin time to do so.
i meant countdown for new year.
we spent time together
steamboat.
beer.
chit chat.
thanks to all who joined us yesterday night.
especially thanks to them, the organizers.
pictures will be upload by them soon i suppose.


last year was really a bad year for me.
too many incidents happened.
well, thanks to everyone who helped out me a lots throughout the year.
gave me advices,moral support,willing to be listeners of mine.
never failed to give a hand to me whenever i needs help.
everything start from SMART,
if not, i would not have chances to meet up each of you.
so sad, Khalphana is not here with me anymore.
we shared our happiness and sorrow.
whenever she having problems,she will come to me and express to me.
i will going to miss her much.
i know her for almost 11 years since standard one.
although we are apart for three year,that time was standard three.
i hope she won't be like me anymore.
something secret=) 



well,i just discovered this from a friend 
truly from her O.O
click on my pics enlarge to view what's happening 
lolx

thanks to her haaa=)


here are some pictures of mine throughout year 2010

me

friends

my loves one

p/s
happy new year
i love you

christmas wishes

never make wishes for Christmas day i suppose.
many years ago,i couldn't remember how old i am at that time.
i only remember those days with no worries.
that day,
my sister and i,both of us hanged our socks near the windows,
we made wishes for presents.
the next day,
we found out there is no presents in it.
we shouted and kept mumbling.
how come no presents if Santa do really exist?
those days,simple brain with innocent faces.
that's is the only day i made wishes to Santa.
tonight,
i moan to you silently,
i pray to you,
i hope HE would be fine.
i hope we would be fine.
i really hopes.

i loves them.
i love you.

hope was in dreams.

i told someone,
"think about yourself,
think about others,
think about what they said,
any decision will be yours"

"don't say you will take care of yourself as you are not even mature enough to take care of yourself,
do not blame anyone as i don't too.
respect others,
or please give a call on what time you are back,
this is what he said.

he is worrying about your health.
don't you feels a little pity on him?
he has alot to do.
rmb?
anyways,
we are one family.
even i work,
i got to do house chores,
forced to cook.
i know you will do it next.
but please, a call a day.
especially during late night.
i know you are big enough as you said.
i am your elder sister,
i have the huge responsibility to take care and care about you guys.
i had change compare to last time,
maybe you feel isn't enough.
i still, will do it.
till the day i leave the world.k？♥ "

pretty true i suppose,
i don't know what is on my mind now,
i feels miserable,
feels like crying out loud.
i feels like killing someone sometimes.
i am not criticizing about anyone,
i am not judging about anyone.
i feels..
i feels empty,transparent for a little while.
i don't say my life is lifeless,
but,odorless.
sometimes we are in uneasy condition,
you feels undirected.
this is how i am now.
i know,
friends are here for me.
even( he) is here for me.
still, thanks for all the advices
but,this is happening real on me and they would not just simply understand.
sorry to say that, they don't know what is real happening.
a big burden sometimes.
time flies and we are getting older and older.
how much can we do?
grey hair is growing,
wrinkles around the face.-i am not talking about myself but....someone who really love us a lots.
i can't hold my tears any longer.
i know i have to work very hard,be tough.
girls are fragile hearted,
even a stubborn old man will do.
so do i.
letting things go does not meant to forget.
i will not and i can't forget how things happened.
and i really blame on myself everything few times ago.
i am really afraid to meet people out there,
how much can i trust them?
someone told me
a close friend should not be trusted so much?
why?
life is so uneasy.
pray harder.
things would be better.



tears on flows.
=(

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