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Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Vocal.

Just went to practice my song.
I can't even sing well now.Was shouting around at home.
Pitching not good,almost flat every part of it.
I am so worry about my vocal.It's been few years I missed my singing class.
I need to improve more .More here means start all over again and learn what is mean by singing.
I ain't a good performer yet.!!
Hesitate.urgh!
Mood swing,maybe this causes my vocal behave this bad.
My throat is dry,.I need hot stuff.-Tomyam, curry,laksa everything...
Should I need to be so serious in this performance?
Hell yeah,this will be the last year performing as a secondary school student.Of course I want this to be memorable.
Who don't wish to be pretty and handsome?Nobody wants to be ugly on that night.
As you know,the hottest topic among upper sixers now is all about Graduation Night.
Everyday you will be hearing people chit-chat about dresses,make up stuff.
Excited huh.


Papers,this is what I get everyday in school.
Different state different levels or what?
Why do pengajian am trial paper from Perak is so difficult?I was trying to do in school today.
I thought I will be able to finish up the calculations part within half and hour.
Guess what,I can't finish more than five question.I was looking for the answer so hard.Ask others they said don't know.If anyone solve it tell me.I want to know why am I so stupid.
I need to push myself fucking hard! I really can't withstand my laziness anymore.
Deserve better?Work harder then.-*reminding myself
I feel like biting people while blogging now. My mood upside down.
Argh!Am I stressing ?
Don't even feel like talking or continue blogging now.
Stay tuned for the next post ba.


Planned to buy this for my Graduation Night.
But stopped by my sister.
She said this dress is ugly on me.
urgh,for me I think is ok LO.
Should I buy this one?
I spent too much this month.
I had bought four dresses this month,I ain't shopaholic,just gone wild sometimes.LOL.



Simple dress.

I know this is not okay,too LOW.especially for GN.
But I wanted to buy this so much.Can I grab this?
White or black suit me?I prefer black.YOU know fat people not much color choice can be made.
Argh.
I am so blurr now.







Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Wish

I wish I am like this and not like that,
I wish to own this and not that.
I wish you are the one who sit next to me now, hug me tight and whisper to me say everything will be alright.
*I know you won't because you have *kek voice
Always blablabla,BIBUBIBUBIBUBIBUBIBUBIBU~~
Now,I am so use to it.
可能习惯了有你的声音,有你的陪伴,有你的理解,有你的安慰,所以觉得自己已经不可以没有你。虽然曾经也有人这样的呵护我,关心我,疼我
如今留下来的人已经不多了
面对过去,我的心情总是忐忑,好像有说不完的痛
但你说的,痛是自己给自己的,何必给自己这些多余的烦恼
你甚至说我放不下,你却没有怪我,还教我应该怎么做
你说没关系,我会觉得难过,过意不去
虽然你的样子总是傻里傻气,但你说的都有你的道理,这就是我输给你的原因
你说不是每个人到了三十出头的才叫成熟
又说我不小了,说一大堆傻话,欺负我
不要说你没有,你明明就有,死不承认 >.<
所以为了以后,我必须面对,克服一切
你的出现是否会像每一次的结局一样,说走就走
你说我少了你就会少了一种快乐,那你永远留下来,不要带走我的快乐
我 需要家人,需要知己,需要朋友,所以更需要你
你只要知道你自己是谁就好了
记得我说的话






Am I falling in love again?
No,This is a post to a very good friend of mine.
Don't misunderstood my sentences.

Everyone is grabbing their dress within this week.
Should I grab one fast?
I just bought one last week.
So sad that it was too short to attend the sixth form Graduation Night.
I am having this thought,will anyone of us wearing the same dress?
You know this can be very awkward.=X
I am having another evil thought,Hopefully I can succeed!

Seriously I need help from you guys,can anyone tell me what song is suitable to perform during Graduation Night?I was thinking about to ask help from Kah Wai whether he can mix both the songs for me.
I wish to perform one malay song and one chinese song.
Please kindly give me suggestions,Really big head to me and also a very caring helper,Pik kuan <3.
You can leave a message through my fb inbox or wall or right side blogger chatbox.
Hopefully there will be reply soon.




Another silly night,








Monday, September 26, 2011

it's been four months.

 I found all these from my private blog.
It's been few months already and I have stopped blogging in that.
I was much naive last time compare to now.
People,don't be shock when you guys read this.
I was a little insane that time,you know it HURTs.
It had past now and I think it's not a problem to share my things.
It's all written by me,I have no idea where to get such good mood to post so many things.
I have more than sixty post there.=(
Those days,real sucks.
I am here,in MY blog,sharing my feelings.
Don't make it an hot topic out there.Especially behind me.If you have anything to ask just come to me and ask or tell Seriously I am not going to mad or hate you guys.
Just don't hide because I dislike it.Really,I prefer to know every truth than HIDING lT FROM ME.
Every truth that I found out by myself is so hurt.I trust my friends and in the end....
Or i should think it this way,hide from me is to protect me and also my feelings?
Then I am not going learn to let go seriously.
I know some of you get what I am trying to say here.
But please,I treasure everyone of you as my real friends.
And I feel like because our relation had end,we are not even friends anymore.
I thought we still able to talk,teasing around.Now not even a hi.
Or maybe because I do not belong to your class?
I just hate this feeling.
I never blame anyone of you.It's just my feelings,my thought.
You guys have ignore my feelings.
Everything just end it this way.
Wish everything back to normal
Still friends,but seems like nobody cares.
I feel awkward because we are not even talking anymore.
I can smile and why can't you.
I am still treating you like a friend.But why can't you.
Why must it be this complicated.
Anyone please explain it to me?
I really don't get it.
Jiayi
Dickson
Tell me why


I think I better stop my story
check this up
MY THOSE DAY
It's long and if you think you can't digest it then stop from reading it

要是我预料到会有今天
我不会要你和我一起
要不是因为你
我不会和你一起
要不是因为你
我不会爱上一个你
要不是因为你
我不会一错再错
要不是因为你
我不会不敢望着你
要不是因为你
我的记忆就不会有你
要不是因为你
我不会望着手机,等待一个不可能的‘你好吗’
要不是因为你
我不会每晚失眠
要不是因为你
我不会几乎每晚梦见你
要不是因为你
我不会对你付出那么多
要不是因为你
我不会分不清什么是对的错的
要不是因为你
我不会觉得自己笨
要不是因为你
我不会拒绝别人
要不是因为你
我不会付出了全部
要不是因为你
我不会因为你的开心而开心
要不是因为你
我不会因为你的伤心而难过
要不是因为你
我不会变得那么自私
要不是因为你
我不会再男生面前哭
要不是因为你
我不会变得那么弱
要不是因为你
我不会知道自己爱你爱到那么深


要不是因为你

我不会有人疼
要不是因为你
我不曾懂得什么叫幸福
要不是因为你
我不曾懂得珍惜
要不是因为你
我不会被关心
要不是因为你
我不会被保护
要不是因为你
我不会被呵护
要不是因为你
不会有人被我看我最爱的星星
要不是因为你
我的生活就会变得乏味
要不是因为你
我的记忆力不会有那么的一年零十天
要不是因为你
我不再相信永远
要不是因为你
我不会有人陪
要不是因为你
我那一年全是痛
要不是因为你
没有人会买我喜欢的东西给我
要不是因为你
不会有人陪我看戏
要不是因为你
我就不会有人照顾
要不是因为你
没有人体会我的感受
要不是因为你
不会有人帮我说好话
要不是因为你
我的记忆力就不会有一个这么好的你
要不是因为你
我会爱上别人而不是你
要不是因为你
我不会过着公主的生活
要不是因为你
不会有人愿意抱着我
要不是因为你
我不会不想再爱别人


为什么你不曾懂得我

突然的你,一切都变得好陌生
为什么现在的你
为什么可以这么狠心
为什么现在的你
说放下就放下
我一直在关心你
顾虑到你的感受
而你却一次又一次地让我痛心
一次又一次让我掉泪
你是否真的考虑到了自己,才想到我
全世界的人都可以说你的不好
说你不值得
就唯有你不可以说自己没资格
因为这样的你,让我好心痛
不是因为我的选择错了
而是因为你对自己失去了信心
所以我痛
相信自己好吗?
人总是自私的
你变得好可怕
很无情
我怕了
我已经不认识现在的你
住在我心里的那个人真的不见了
你只记得我们的不快乐
因为这样,快乐的回忆少了
当时十年后的你,看会今天的部落格
你还会不会想起我们之间的一切
请你不要讨厌我
因为太爱你
我变傻了
原谅我的错

每当我说话的时候

你总是对我说到家了
你总是对我不耐烦
换成了是别人女生,她们忍受得了吗?
我一次又一次的维护你
我多久没有和你吵架了
有多久没有没有对你发脾气了
你有认真的考虑我的感受吗?
爱的时候,总是甜蜜,总是开心
当遇到挫折的时候,为什么选择了离开,而不是坚持下去
你还记得你说会陪我渡过难关吗
你还记得在我人生受到挫折的时候陪着我吗
你的一句不成熟
就把所有的事情推到一干二净
我不会再埋怨你了
已经不会再生气你了
你对我再怎么残忍
我还是忘不了你
我想尽办法是着忘记
如果我是你,我不会痛到现在
你已经忘了我了,
因为你什么都没说,我才会误会你这么多
原谅我的幼稚
我对你说的每一句话,
都是真心的
我一直都没变
你也没有变
世界变了
如果还可以
我会爱你
不管经历了多少
我不想放弃

以前的你,看到我哭,你会心痛
现在的你,看到我哭,会是什么心情?
我相信,已经不是爱,不是心痛
如果是我,就算是朋友,我还是会给你温柔
就算以后不再见面,我会给你温柔

爱上我或许真的是你的错

请不要只记得我们的不开心
我们的开心,请你留在心里
在你心里,我要做个会让不时都会笑的那个人

一首歌,我可以听上好几百遍

因为每个歌词表达了我的心情
你呢?
还会想我吗?
即使你对我说没有
我也好想以为你有想我

傻瓜就是我 

我清醒了没有
我告诉你答案
我不想醒来
看见你冷淡的脸,沉默的话
即使知道不可能
我也好想等到可能的那天
因为你是真的值得

现在的你

不论做什么事情
都不会考虑到我半点的心情
你的开心
真的你是因为我了
现在的笑容
比以前好看多了
你和他们真的很好
我很羡慕
却没人带给我这种快乐

而我的出现

只会肮脏了你的生活 


快点等到明年的到来
或许这样我就不会那么痛
不会因为没有你就痛
明年的这个时候
我想我们不会再是朋友
而是陌生人

即使说是朋友

你也不会再看我一眼
我好想快点度过今年
明年的我
就可以完完全全的消失

因为我要给你幸福

虽然那个人不是我

衷心的祝福你

快快找到一个爱你的天使 

现在你遇到了

傻瓜, 我们都一样 被爱情伤了又伤 相信这个他不一样 却又再一次受伤
唱给自己的这首歌 是因为我这次真的这么认为你就是不一样
你说再也没有感觉 你说爱情不能勉强 我就是那个傻瓜
原来 我可以这么的看不开 原来我如此的天真 你一句话也没说就离开了 我真的不配了吗?




those days,silly
</3
I should think about future,no more past
=)


T Chuin H, sorry
I love you Geez

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Specially for you

A must for you to read this.




This is what I think about you:
First impression- 不要玩啦- but it's been quite a long time I never heard this from you.
And also the first hey you gave me.This is how we started to know each others.
So far you have becoming a very best friend to me.And I feel comfortable when talking to you.
Maybe others think that you are wild,crazy type person but I know actually you are not.
Thanks for telling and sharing about your past.There's nothing wrong about your past.At least now you are clear about your future.
You said:每天都要赚奶粉钱~~
When I share my problems to you,you will advice me.Although the way you speak to me is like teasing,sometimes even scolding.I know is all for my own good.Your words really makes me think a lot.
THANK YOU,AND I really appreciate it.
You said 我还是很幼稚,原因是因为我穿校服。Let me tell you我总有一天会赢你。
你的什么意思哦~有时候很伤人你却傻傻不知道,你的一贯作风</3
Sometimes I sad when you ignore my feelings.Of course I do know you are busy as always.Anyways,thanks for spending your time with me when I need you the most.=)
你有没有喝水?
做么没有喝?
现在去喝~
Thanks for being so concern and caring about me.
You are someone who is really ego.大男人-is this related to your horoscope?I think so.
I have to listen to what you say.
And 我没有*Kek* ,你让我学会了你的语言


thanks for yesterday night,I told my problem and you still willing to advice me.
Are you sad about the thing that I told you?Although your face show nothing but....
sorry :( I just want to be honest with you.
当你说我还放不下,我不是担心自己,而是你,你介意吗?你不说我都知道你心里会有一点点不开心。
argh~~~ He is someone who always say never mind but who knows.
When you read this,don't scold me kek kek again.Because I ain't kek!I am just expressing myself here.

When I am down,you will talk alot nonsense things to make me smile again.
Awwwwwww <3

You are someone special to me for now.
T Chuin H, I LOVE you♥
♥HEART YOU♥
我将有你的心,你不可以说我kek
你大声一点点我都不可以!


Thank you my friend

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Charice

Babe I am down down down~~
something spin my head go round and round.
This word spin into my head >>> awkward.
I don't wish my moments to be awkward.

I need a CHANGE.
so dead with the recent me.
Hell yeah,of course now is not the right time yet.
But I have started my plan already.
People wait me,after my exam.


I found Charmaine Clarice Relucio Pempengco,  common name: Charice.
At first I thought she is a chinese .She is a Philippines.
wow! Her voice is powerful with high tunes.I love her voice so much.
Basically she started to sing at tender age four,took part in competitions around seven.
here she is:




She is gorgeous, isn't she?
I can never be talented like her..
I love her songs,this is one of it.


really touches my heart with only the first sentence,arghh!

This is what I do when I get bored right infront of my lappy.
Posts are all the same.yiiiiuuuuu





He said this is scary.

I Like.

I mad at him for a moment.

Never talk to him for hours.
In the end,I gave up.
Because he know how to make me fall to him again.
♥ awwww

Friday, September 23, 2011

LOVE

Family love,
Friends love,
Couples love,
they are real in life.
you can't see it but try to understand it,feel it
Appreciate before you know when it is too late.
It causes both happiness and pain.
Both are equally important for us to learn think,to be mature,to grow wiser.


Because he make me laugh,

Delightful. 

I’m going to remember all the nights I spent with him here.

THE PREFECT NIGHT WAS AWESOME.-enjoyed much  =) I was stunned at the moment when En,Azhar walked to me and asked me to present a song.I was like>>>> *.<  I never prepare anything and you ask me go on stage.Well,luckily the event held successfully and in the end I don't need to sing due to time factor .LOL.BUT,he said he will ask me again during Graduation Night.I don't even decide whether going or not yet.>>>> =( EN,AZHAR said HE WANNA DUET with me.AHAHAHAH! I bet this is only his jokes.

If and only if I am going and ask to perform a song.What song would you want me to present?Kindly inform me so that I could prepare earlier.TERLALU ISTIMEWA is a very sweet song for me  =).How many of you do really try to understand the lyrics?I hope there's other better song for me to present?nobody wants me to repeat the same song in every performance I suppose?But if there's no choice,then I will stick to this one. KINDA BORING I KNOW.....owh! How about GEMILANG? I tried to find the disc and download from the net still its hard to find instrumental song that fit my key.>>>> =( A very powerful song,gemilang by Jacklyn victor.-malaysian idol...

skip it.

I am done with my trials now and what I need now is good rest*sleep.This coming three days will be busy attending my cousin sister wedding.Look at the clock now and it strikes 4.40am.

Proudly to say that i break my record never sleep and get rest for more than 24 hours which means I don't sleep for almost two days.Imagine I am still infront of my lappy having this kind of epic mood to update my bloggie.*actually I am half dead already.

SEE

alright,that's all for the night and prepare myself to sleep.

 

He said: I want chips but don't want more.  - chipsmore.

I loves to see when he winks his eyes to me,awwwww <3


stay tuned.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Imma missing

Have no idea what am I doing at this time.-midnight 3a.m
current statuses in my FB:
Is all reflects about my stupidity.
Great that there are still likes...
I am a person who trust people so easily.Undeniable.
So here is the example,
When I was 17,my ex love told me that cockroach belongs to dinasaur family.
At first I refuse to agree with him.But because of the way he acted so real,so serious.I agreed with him.
He laughed at me and I was like =.=!! cheated!
I can never forget this.

Just imagine that I am a SCIENCE student.
Even if I am not,use brain and think logically of course cockroach do not belong to dinasour family!
gosh!!Is this silly enough? I feel like laughing myself for being this fool.
So if you feel like making a lie to me,please add on your innocent face then I will trust you 100%
SERIOUSLY YES!


But one thing,after today I will try to learn up how to not being cheated easily.
Because when you know the truths,you are going to be so hurt.
I am real stupid.How I wish to be smarter.
This world is so big.
HE said that there's different kind of peoples who I haven't meet or found yet.
Wonder if I continue behaving this naive.
I was emo few hours back,after blogging it,I feels better.
I remind myself not to be silly anymore.*always but still failed.
Sometimes I thought if you treat others good they will treat you good in return.
Now i realize not everyone is like that...
Even yes,they are fakers,don't you think?
I had experienced it.
I care too much!
mind my own business next time=)

just cried,to relief myself.
If HE knows I cry,he will just scold me stupid. <3
Sometimes I don't wish to face the world because it causes pain.
And again HE said this is life.
He thought me a lot of things.




I AM MISSING MY CHA SAO BAO.




明明很想哭,却还在笑。
明明很在乎,却装作无所谓。
明明很想留下,却坚定的说要离开。
明明很痛苦,却偏偏说自己很幸福。
明明忘不掉,却说已经忘了。
... 明明放不下,却说他是他,我是我。
明明舍不得,却说我已经受够了。
明明说的是违心的假话,却说那是自己的真心话。
明明眼泪都快溢出眼眶,却高昂着头。
明明已经无法挽回,却依旧执着。
明明知道自己很受伤,却说你不必觉得欠我的。

cha sao bao face.

DEDICATE TO SOMEONE:




STAY TUNED.
peeps

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Criticism

Think twice before you speak to a person.
This sentence I dedicate to myself and also peoples who do not think at all before they speak.

Day by day,I getting irritate by things that I care too much
Somehow,disappointing!
DON'T YOU EVER ASKED WHY AM I DARE TO TELL THIS OUT to you
figure it out by yourself,one day you will know.
if you thinks that what you have did so far is right then move on.
but this time I will not look and care about it anymore.
I was trying to be good-to you
Telling you about my opinions.
In return,those words that you threw to me through messages is too painful.
Before I went to sleep,
I took about half and hour to digest them.
I reread every single words for more than three times.
Is not short but I read them all.
*what the fart,more three times?? 
this is the thing which makes me feel stupid on myself because I care everything so much!
think positively,for what you had told me maybe is true.
The same thoughts came to myself before you send those messages.
Is just that the way you express your words to me,
don't you think if is hurt?
Don't tell me you care about me anymore.
It's never lah!!
For me,you are just a flirty person more than anything else.
And please don't simply make your own conclusions.Can you?
FROM THOSE MESSAGES,
For what you had criticized I never revenge back is because I don't see any changes can be done with explanations.YOU will NEVER UNDERSTAND.
I rather keep it myself.-keep quite.
You only knows how to think for your side.
You asked me to think about it.For myself and for YOU??
Asked me to think for your side-and i feel like farting on you!!!!
*I know I am rude this time,you push me this hard till this level.
If I could slap you I probably have done it.
YOU SHOULD KNOW HOW IRRITATE IT IS.
How much you talk will show useless because you don't deserve the success yet! 
Anyhow,you are trying,still in the progress
Please learn from mistakes my dear.
everything must be done by purposes
tell me yours then.
I do not know what are you plans for now and seriously I am not interested on it at all!!
You said I got so much more to learn.Then how about yourself?
Don't ask me to support you.
We are too young for this!
If you have such ability at this age along with your *right thoughts perhaps you have success already.


Wow,I feel bad about posting out my rudeness -for me is rude enough.>>> =(
THIS PERSON PUSH ME HARDLY TO THIS LEVEL!
GOSH!
I mind for appearing you in my blog for the second time and this time is the bad ones.
Up to you to believe or not
I care and I mind everything single thing you say to me
I feel tired by having this kind of life trying to introduce myself more to others where they don't even try to understand.
I won't waste my time again for giving you chances.
Too many chances given to you and for this time,I just could not make it anymore.
I won't care or even bother anymore.
I don't want to mess up my life with you.
Sorry.


With above matter,I referred to somebody.
I told him everything.
I showed him the messages
The first respond he gave was"sucks man~~"
He said this person is a Fucker and I was like ~.~!!
He adviced me not to get affected by others.
what he said was exactly what my super dad remind us always.
“做人耳朵不要放得太轻”
at first I don't understand what my dad was trying to tell but now I understand.

we can never be prefect,
urgh,be natural then!
at least try not to be a faker.</3
People always say we are what we eat
I say we are behaving how we think internally.


WORDS CAN BE PAINFUL.
it kills me all night.
That's why I need to blog out to express myself.
relief?
perhaps...

I found this :


太看重感情的人就是这27种下场

1、容易满足,更容易受伤
2、总有一种,被忽视的感觉
3、付出的远远超过得到的
4、很固执,不懂得放弃,
5、总是说着要离开,却一再为自己找不离开的理由
6、在别人面前笑得很开心,一个人的时候却很漠落
7、在陌生人面前很安静,在朋友面前胡闹
8、不会想索要的太多的回报,只要一点点就可以让我死心塌地,可以很少,但一定要有
9、心情不好的时候,却喜欢听悲歌
10、坐在电脑前,不知道做什么,却又不想关掉它
11、觉得世界上每一个人都不可靠,但却还是那样地选择相信别人
12、偶尔会有种想消失的念头
13、不喜欢等待,却总是等待
14、经常不经意的发呆
15、总会把事情想得很长久
16、总是觉得没有人会把自己放在心里疼
17、心事放在心底,有一个自己的世界
18、习惯了沉默,在沉默中爆发
19、会怀疑,却总是要把人往好处想
20、不喜欢一个人逛街
21、一点点事就胡思乱想
22、自己走路会很快
23、隐藏心事,喜欢一个人流泪
24、习惯冷战
25、喜欢角落、习惯蜷缩
26、莫名地孤单,无法抗拒的恐惧感
27、不爱说话或很爱说话



I am down past few days.-having hard phase in my life.
I went and met some awesome people few days ago.
A special thanks to them.
I don't dare to speak a word when I see their faces-not kidding.
I know they can understand me easily and that is the main purpose I met them
And their words are powerful enough to wake me up and face through everything
Is true.
They know about me more now.Should be a good thing . 
thanks for being so caring.
I can never forget who are they.
I appreciate them!

And also I wants to say thank you for those who being so concern about me lately.
I know some of you.And you know who are yourself.
Peoples tend to gather around and starts to gossip.
Have to admit that I loves gossip sometimes by  using ears not mouth.>>> =.=
Think it this way >> gossip with others means that you are concern about the person or matter on what you are discussing.
Is it better?-I think so la.

I have done with my first week papers.
MATHEMATICS kill us the most I suppose.
one week left.
THIS IS ONLY TRIAL
Supposedly not deserve to get this kind of such normal result in form 6
I deserve more - If I work real hard.
I miss those days where there's only books in mind.
NERDY~
He said probably I want changes in my life,that is why I am not behaving like previous years anymore
agree agree..<3




wish to be naive

wish to be silly

                                                   so that I can forget those hurt easily.

I am good, but not an angel. I do sin, but I am not the devil. I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love."–Marilyn Monroe.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

universal truths about love

Love will change you.
Emotional connections with people affect who we are and how we act. It can make us a better person, and it can drag us down into a hole; thus turn us into something we want or don’t want to become. This can be both a conscious thing and sub conscious. That is the nature of the beast.


Love brings both happiness and pain.
While love can be expressed through physical acts, Love is not physical, it’s emotional.


Sometimes love is not enough.

Love isn’t perfect, we will all have our bad days, drive each other crazy, and have disagreements. But when a relationship between two people goes bad, then sometimes love really isn’t enough.

Love is more than just a romantic relationship. 
At the end of the day, we may lose a romantic partner or we may find one, but remember there are other things and people you love. The most important love of your life you’ll ever have is love for yourself. Love you.

accept that love is.



So I will move on. But I just needed you to know that I think of you.
And miss us. But I am moving on.
I hold a place for you, that is filled with pain and love and forgiveness.

I forgive you for hurting me and for not knowing that you did.

I wish you the best. Maybe if the timing had been different.


maybe if you were different..

Maybe we'll never know. 





I WISH NOT TO SEE THINGS TOO CLEAR SOMETIMES.


Friday, September 9, 2011

FATE

或许早已注定今天这样的一个结局
无论是好是坏,事实是我已经接受了
谢谢你们,一直默默的关心我甚至讨论我
我是为爱而堕落,但绝非你们想的那样


Perhaps, such a long destiny.
Whether good or bad, I have accepted the fact that I really should.
Thank you to all of you who have been quietly concerned about me,even discuss about me.
I fall for love matter, but not as what you all think about.
Don't worry,time will heal.*comforting myself




你能不能选择大方,不偷鸡摸狗?
可能你觉得这样做就伤不了我
你错了,隐瞒只会让我感到反感
不如大方的承认
不是或许而我是真真切切的能够接受
我选择不问任何人是因为我知道 了答案
还让你继续圆你的谎言
我觉得只要你开心,你幸福就好
其实,真的不用隐瞒了
我已经无所谓了
该属于你的就去追求,我别无要求
你们可以幸福,我也可以



Wednesday, September 7, 2011

07.09.2011

I am still alive.

祝我自己,生日快乐


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF.


I am officially 19 now.
thanks for all the wishes from facebook friends.
and also not to forget my lovely classmates,teacher for the birthday cake.
This will be the last year staying together with them in a class.
I appreciate today and everything that done by all of you.




我不想偷偷掉泪,但我还是控制不住
对不起,又再一次让你们失望了




其实我一点也不快乐
我需要时间
我会比任何人来的更坚强


我还在等待一封我希望会出现的信息
然而,现在的我依然想念以前每一年的今天,都会有你的日子
简单的,快乐的
她说别停留得太久,因为你已经走上了你自己的轨道

今天不只属于我
而是属于我们,一个永不褪色的家

今天的我是空虚的,寂寞的
最后,
秀嫒,生日快乐



青蛙wak wak,谢谢你送上的祝福还有生日歌
,蛮感动的<3